Amber Portwood's intense legal troubles are taking a toll on the 22-year-old reality star and mom to Leah, 3.
Having just completed a rehab stay at Seasons Recovery Center in Malibu, Calif., Portwood returns to her Anderson, Ind., hometown on Tuesday's episode of Teen Mom and has trouble adjusting to life with ex-boyfriend Gary Shirley and their daughter.
"I'm stressing," Portwood tells her cousin Krystal in a preview clip from Tuesday's episode, which was filmed months ago. She adds that she's having trouble working with Shirley -- Leah's guardian -- to arrange visitation. "Sometimes I wish I could go back to rehab. How sad is that? Sometimes I don't know how to live anymore."
Encouraging her cousin to take things one day at a time, Krystal dials up Shirley to help Portwood arrange the next week's visitation, but Portwood can't seem to hold her tongue. "He's a piece of crap!" she fumes after Krystal's conversation with Shirley, whom Portwood declares to be a "fatass."
Rather than deal with her mounting legal woes -- some of which will be chronicled on her final season of Teen Mom this summer -- Portwood opted out of a court-ordered rehab program in June 2012, instead agreeing to a five-year prison term.
"I was very depressed, all alone, all bitter at everybody," Portwood -- who survived a suicide attempt in June 2011 -- reasoned to ABC News after beginning her extended jail term. "I felt like that wasn't the life I wanted to live, I felt like I'd rather do my time, and get it over with, and make the best out of the situation that's been handed to me."